"You Shall Not Pass"
When I agreed to work for RMGS for a year, I was expecting a relatively easy ride - no such luck! Its not necessarily a bad thing though; after all, I’ve been presented with a lot of fantastic opportunities this year. Not only to develop my own skills, to to leave my mark at the school, to begin to launch my own software development company, to work with some very expensive and high power equipment, but also begin to experience “the real world”.
Despite some initial reservations, all of this has however always been a stepping stone. I’ve learnt through the year that whilst working in ICT in the education sector is a fun and varied job, its not the career path I want to be following. To progress further I need to get my degree, and then look from there into my options in the Software Development market.
This last few months however, it’s almost like I’m not supposed to leave… It’s just been one thing after another at work, and I have to say the stress has been getting to me lately. Starting with Sam leaving for a better position, which promoted me to Network Manager, and then having a catalogue of disasters over the summer break; culminating in falcon, our core router, dhcp server, dns server and proxy server breaking beyond all repair; I’m starting to think its some sort of sign.
Yesterday should have been my last day, my contract has theoretically expired, however I’m going to be there for at least the next fortnight. I’ve had less than a week off (through holiday or absense) in the last year, and I’ve in fact been in for 5 hours today… On a Saturday! I’ve become a work-o-holic. I’ll be doing another few hours tomorrow from home, fixing moodle - another delayed summer job. I was supposed to be taking a holiday, I just don’t have time now. I can’t help but wonder how I’m going to cope at University without constantly having lots to do. Frankly, that’s what’s worrying me most at the moment - not having lots to do, not being under constant stress.
Is that normal?